I just want to offer you encouragement and tell you I have been where you are. I had more before I was married than after I got married and had kids. In fact, I lost it all from my first husband. I experienced homelessness, poverty, and felt like an inadequate parent being unable to provide for my kids. What did I learn? Not to depend on others for the life I want. It was a hard lesson, but one I took to heart. At the time I didn't think I would ever get on my feet, but I'm so bullheaded I just refused to quit trying. My biggest mistake is who I choose to marry as well. After all the abuse, neglect, lies and suffering being married to him, and a long, expensive custody battle, I finally was awared my children and able to put my ex and my past behind me. Its been over 10 long years and an even longer climb back up to where I was before I married him, but I made it. I am proud to say the past 9 years where due to the help of my new husband who is one of the sources of my strength. My main strength comes from God and from within. Even though I love my husband and our life together, never again will I allow anyone to destroy me or kill my dreams or steal my happiness and joy. I love being in a marriage that is a partnership, however, I did learn the hard way "its ok to let a man take care of you, as long as both of you know you can take care of yourself." Please be encouraged, I know life isnt fair what we go through because we can't see through people or their intentions, but allow it to mold you into a stronger and more resilient person. You sound very determined and I'm sure its only a matter of time before you are back on your feet. Don't stop believing in yourself.
